I THINK I AM ALLOWED TO BE AS PROUD AND OBNOXIOUS ABOUT MY SELF ESTEEM AS I WANT BECAUSE I BUILT THAT SHIT UP FROM THE GROUND
so the other day I noticed that my arms are getting soft. Now keep in mind for years my arms have been decently muscular. In fact my bench press max at one time was 215. However, since I am not a gym rat anymore and since I still want my arms to be somewhat toned I am really working hard to do at least ten pushups a day. That may not seem like a lot, but I feel like it will at least give my arms some sort of workout every day.
I did 20 pushups yesterday and 10 today so I am looking good so far. And I am doing good push-ups. Not the kind with my knees on the ground. Back flat, butt flat, chest touching the ground and back up push-ups.
I feel good about this.
My whole life used to be about sports and working out and attaining the “perfect” body. For years I worked out 5-6 times a week for 3 hours or more a day. And guess what? I burned myself out. The mental stress of trying to attain perfection almost killed me, but it has been almost a year since I left all of that behind. Yeah I worked out in the winter and I even got a membership at PF, but once April hit I stopped going to the gym. Then in July I started working full time so in the past 5 or so months I have hardly worked out AND I LOVE IT. My whole life was centered around physical activity since a young age and finally now my life isn’t about that anymore. My body looks just about the same. Yeah I have lost muscle mass but there was no way I was going to keep lifting 20 hours a week to sustain it.
I am more confident now than I ever was and fitness is cool and all and it is still a big part of who I am but it is not my life anymore and that is so freeing. There is so much more to life and obsessing over working out all the time or trying to get the perfect body may make some people happy but it didn’t make me happy.
I’m just really glad I figured that out. Because there is a whole world out there and now that I’m not stuck in a gym all the time I can go out and see it.